It's been awhile since I've blogged. Not intentionally, just a lot going on. At some point last year, I really started reflecting on how busy my life was. Busy, stressful and too much of being too much. There were some physical side effects. Mental ones, for sure. I've tried to think about what can be "taken off my plate". Really, nothing. But maybe the balance needs to shift. Sometimes, I feel like the picture above. It's balanced, but there's a lot of things to balance. And a lot of times it feels like there is no order to things. Lots of balls in the air, but they are uneven. Unbalanced. And I'm the stone on the bottom, one stone, holding lots of things up.
I have not chosen a "One Little Word" for a year in a long time. I don't like New Year's goals, and while a word is different from a goal, nothing felt authentic.
But this year, I need to strive for more balance. Whether it's as a One Little Word, or just something I'm going to keep in the back of my mind. Like I said earlier, I can't take things off my plate, but maybe I can arrange them differently. So maybe the stones in the picture above can become more orderly. I want to be present more. I want to do what I enjoy doing, but maybe how and where I allot time to will look different week to week, month to month. I want to do something and do it fully, not just a little bit because it's all I have time to do. I'm not going to feel badly about saying no. It's ok to cut back on something to make time for others. People first.
And I'm going to think about myself. I don't like being stressed all the time. I don't like the physical feeling it gives me. If I can make some changes to feel a balance, that's what I am going to do this year. If I need to blog less, that's ok. If I need to take a social media break, it will be there when I get back. If I don't get reading done, I can't let it bother me. To get good at something, it needs to be a focus. So maybe I'll take on less projects and concentrate on something. This won't be done in a day. I'll still fail at balancing it all just right. But I'm going to try.
Let's do this.